I collapse upon myself
a star reborn
I collapse in you
a poison of your own creation
I collapse on the floor
a waking nightmare I can’t escape
I thought you could catch me
I think over and over again
I find myself collapsing
and catch myself
I wish I could collapse on you
in your arms
But I also don’t.
People drop you, you know.
I forget what safety is
there is only awake.
I unclench my muscles
I am only tense I say
How are you
Fine.
Do you need anything
I don’t know.
Fall Risk,
It’s just November.